If you google those notes, you'll see a ton of stuff scribbled. Taken in aggregate, it fits her story well: she did this as a way of processing her intense emotions. Emotions that came from being present for many infant deaths and then being suspended from her job and learning it was because some other people thought she killed those bab…
If you google those notes, you'll see a ton of stuff scribbled. Taken in aggregate, it fits her story well: she did this as a way of processing her intense emotions. Emotions that came from being present for many infant deaths and then being suspended from her job and learning it was because some other people thought she killed those babies intentionally. That will break a person.
If you've never done this kind of "processing through writing" thing before, I can see how it seems strange. But a lot of people do it. A lot of therapists recommend it. Writing down your raw thoughts and emotions in the moment is a tool for dealing with them.
Most of what she wrote was along the lines of "am I a bad nurse? did I do something wrong? what do other people think of me? why is this happening to me?" Those are all perfectly understandable, given the circumstances.
In fact, they seem much more consistent with her *not* having intentionally killed a bunch of infants, especially in the very calculating manner she's alleged to have done it, which required premeditation and manipulation and deception of her co-workers. Does a methodical murderer then scribble a confession along with a ton of other scattered thoughts that are the opposite of a confession, and then put them in a folder and leave them under her bed for a couple of years?
I don't think she'd have been a methodological murderer, just potentially a crazy, crime-of-opportunity murderer. I see what you are saying, and maybe her defense had an expert who explained this and how it worked--I don't really know how the British legal system works. I did read a couple articles and saw copies of the pages. If you're right about the general tenor of her writings, then you've made a better case than the articles I read. It is clear that it wasn't coherent.
If you google those notes, you'll see a ton of stuff scribbled. Taken in aggregate, it fits her story well: she did this as a way of processing her intense emotions. Emotions that came from being present for many infant deaths and then being suspended from her job and learning it was because some other people thought she killed those babies intentionally. That will break a person.
If you've never done this kind of "processing through writing" thing before, I can see how it seems strange. But a lot of people do it. A lot of therapists recommend it. Writing down your raw thoughts and emotions in the moment is a tool for dealing with them.
Most of what she wrote was along the lines of "am I a bad nurse? did I do something wrong? what do other people think of me? why is this happening to me?" Those are all perfectly understandable, given the circumstances.
In fact, they seem much more consistent with her *not* having intentionally killed a bunch of infants, especially in the very calculating manner she's alleged to have done it, which required premeditation and manipulation and deception of her co-workers. Does a methodical murderer then scribble a confession along with a ton of other scattered thoughts that are the opposite of a confession, and then put them in a folder and leave them under her bed for a couple of years?
I don't think she'd have been a methodological murderer, just potentially a crazy, crime-of-opportunity murderer. I see what you are saying, and maybe her defense had an expert who explained this and how it worked--I don't really know how the British legal system works. I did read a couple articles and saw copies of the pages. If you're right about the general tenor of her writings, then you've made a better case than the articles I read. It is clear that it wasn't coherent.